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If You Feel Like You’re Failing at Motherhood, You Are Not Alone

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If You Feel Like You’re Failing at Motherhood, You Are Not Alone

work and familySeven years ago today, I became a mom. It was as humbling then as it is today. While I strive for a Utopian work-family balance, sometimes I feel like a miserable failure. Reflecting back on those first days and weeks and months of motherhood, I can’t say I enjoyed it much. I felt awful. I had extreme difficulty with breastfeeding; I felt overwhelmed and overly-anxious, lonely, crippled with sleep deprivation, and torn between staying home with my baby or going back to the job I previously loved. I felt plagued with guilt and fear, and suffered from severe postpartum depression. I slept about 8 hours a week for roughly 6 months. I thought I was losing my mind. How I managed to get myself out of this is a long story, but somehow my husband and I were able to reinvent our lives from two parents with full-time jobs and a (wonderful) nanny, to two parents running home-based businesses and ample time for ourselves and our family. Though often I feel like my family is totally out of balance (and always feel like it’s my “fault” if we are), I endeavor to keep us all on track, and have ample time/space for everything, everyone, and be fully present in every moment. It’s extremely challenging to cultivate balance, and feel happy in all aspects of our lives, but I truly believe it’s possible. I have a long, detailed strategy of how I balance family and work, but even with all my lists and systems and strategies, it doesn’t always work. In those moments, when everything comes unraveled, I try to not judge myself, because that’s just the way it is with kids sometimes. It’s a mess, and it’s magic, all at the same time. So all this is to say, keep striving for balance, people. I believe we CAN enjoy our work and family and ourselves, if we make it our top priority.

Hi, I'm Natalie, founder of Mommywise. I'm a Brooklyn mom of two (now) teenagers, PPD survivor, still humbled by the early years of parenting. I started this blog in 2004 as a way to help other parents who felt as dark and lonely as I felt to feel less shame, normalize the feelings of not loving parenthood, and raise awareness about postpartum mood disorders. I'm passionately committed to helping new parents feel more joy, offering sustainable employment for women and mothers, and contributing to positive change in the world.

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